Female drivers.

Let me start this post by saying that i am a female driver and this is just my general observation about myself.
Do i hate driving(this is a rhetoric question) ..this is one activity that gets me so tensed up... i think i av lost more weight while learning to drive than by actually trying to lose weight. Somehow i just can't get over my inherent fear. The moment i see big vehicles approaching..god am i done for... or maybe at some junction when i av to turn, there is a traffic light, moreover pedestrians crossing the road the exact moment they are not supposed to and all of a sudden i go blank... i mean i become so indecisive as to what to do.. . i frankly don't av the confidence... i can conquer all my fears except this... people say it is not that tough..it easy once you get in the groove.. but i somehow can't see myself finding it easy..all my senses need to be on high alert... and some people say it relaxes them..to this i say:to each his own.

One thing that gets me cold with fear is that when the car starts rolling backward or forward when i stop due to a traffic jam or traffic light... once long time an incident happened and till now when the car is stationary it seems to me as though the car is moving backwards... even when writing this post i am in high tension...

i av never feared from any challenge but somehow it seems a mere mechanical contraption is getting the better of me.. man sorry Woman v/s Machine. i just wish i can get over my phobia... can can move through traffic like i see my expert friends doing.. no tension.. it will make me independent in the true sense also...

I'll keep u posted on my driving fiascoes.